Fuck you.

I'm annoyed or irritated.. I have no clue but I just need to type.

It sucks when you confess what you feel towards a friend, then everyone knows the fucking answer to that. It doesn't fucking happen. I still did it just so that I have no regrets before I leave to the Air Force. But the inevitable happens, she comes back to her old ex.. I don't fucking know why, this is a guy who was possessive etc. I don't know much about him, but he doesn't sound to pleasant from the stories that was told to me.

I know I don't have the fucking external qualities the guy has or the money, but I know I'm hell of a better guy than him. So I wonder, the times that was told to me that external qualities and money doesn't matter, but it really does. I am what I am because of the fucking things that has happen to me. I'm not mad because she doesn't like me back, I'm mad because it seemed like I wasn't given that chance even with the fucking personality I have. I'm easily replaceable, nothings permanent. The times I was there was just shit and doesn't mean anything anymore...

I don't know, but if you really were my friend how come you weren't there whenever I needed your help. But yet I was there when you cried, when you were happy, when you were at your best...

this is fucking bullshit, i'm outie..